Placeholder
Wednesday, February 24, 2010 at 9:40PM I feel I owe you guys a post, or at least owe it to myself to write something, but I also feel like I have nothing to write. I have all this paralyzing angst lately. And nobody wants to read about THAT.
I also have several things in the works that might get me out of that place of paralysis, but I don't want to jinx them. You've probably read between the lines by now and figured out that my one major soul-killer is my job, so they have something to do with that.
I finally got a real live naturopath on the phone and made an appointment for Monday. (It turned out that the referral to a gyno that my doctor was supposed to make before she abruptly closed her practice, did not actually go through. It took them 3 months to call me back and tell me they'd never heard of me. So rather than go through the whole process again with a new GP, I am just going to go to a health practitioner that is more in line with my beliefs anyway.) There is a 12-page "getting to know you" form that I have to fill out. Want to know what kind of poops I have and whether I was breastfed within 10 hours of being born? Probably not, but apparently the naturopath does.
I don't really think that my job is the cause of my weird menopausal symptoms, but just filling out that form drove home how very toxic it is. Physically and emotionally. Every day, I absorb stress and anger and bitterness along with the dust and solvent fumes.
I gots to get out of there, you guys.
Reader Comments (35)
Good luck with everything!
I agree. Whenever your job affects your sleep, (I fell asleep, dreamed, and woke up thinking about the job), affects your health, (my insides felt like they wanted to fall out), affects your relationships, (I was a bitch, cried a lot, stressed everyone else out, and bitched and moan every time I had to leave for work), then it's time to get OUT!
Don't feel guilty if you do, money or no. And in about 30 days YOU WILL FEEL MUCH, MUCH BETTER.
GET OUT! Bad jobs will crush your soul. Granted I kept up with mine until they deleted my department, but its been great ever since.
Funny thing is, as I was reading this post, itunes on random decided to play Alice's Ballad of Dwight Fry...."I gotta get out of here!"
Interesting....
BTW, you got your tickets yet?
Yeah. Damn, that's tough. It really is amazing how much we physicalize our stress and work problems. I have no doubt that a change of environment would improve your physical ailments tremendously.
Yep!! You have it bad!! You must leave as soon as possible!! I have been there and I finally just quit because I was so sick. Best thing I ever did. I know that is pretty drastic but that was my only way out at the time. I soon found a much more compatible job! Good luck hon! It is terrible I know.
Hugs
SueAnn
Do whats in your heart and you can't go wrong. You'll be awesome in whatever you do.
There are good parts and bad parts of every job but if you were to put them on a scale which out weighs the other?
You'll find your way because you are smart and talented.
Yes it sounds liek that job isn't your cup of tea, I hope you find something that fits. Good luck with the natrupath. :)
Here's the plan: Write a brilliant comic that gains a faithful underground following and then sell your soul to Marvel (ie Disney), have a multi-million dollar grossing movie made wherein your comic is slightly butchered, but hey, at least it's getting out there to the mainstream, and then retire. And also, don't feel bitter about the fact that Disney (Disney!) butchered your comic, because all of your fanboys will be doing that for you and you can just roll in the piles and piles of money you've made. Oh, all of that was so you can quit your job. I forgot to mention that. :/
Fingers crossed for you.
*hugs*
When life gets sucky, I go play an mmo. Or two. I might have been up to three at one point, but I will never confirm or deny that.
Good luck with the new Dr. And thanks for not sharing the details!
You'd be AMAZED at how much stress affects those weird menopausal symptoms. I can deal with mine if I'm not under duress stress, but when I am they go haywire.
Find a new job! Good for you! You'll find you feel a WHOLE lot better once you're out of that environment.
I think most of us can relate to how it feels to have a crappy job, at least one time in our lives.
While only you and your family should decide how to move forward, I agree with many of the comments above. A paycheck is seldom worth the negative health and mental aspects of working at a job you hate.
On a health note, I hope you get to feeling better and remember that you are not alone. :-)
Oh, a naturopath? Awesome. My naturopath got us preggers with the Man Cub. I hope that whatever you need they can provide. Either way, you will learn so much about yourself and how your body works it will be an eye opening experience.
Good luck with the job hunt. No job is worth compromising your family, health and happiness.
I know what you mean. When I was pregnant with No 2 I worked at a manufacturing plant and welding dust was always every where. Every time I went to the doctor he had to assure me that it wasn't going to kill my baby. He was born healthy and no problems so far. But that wasn't all. The stress was killer. I was so happy when I finally got laid off. Luckily I found another job pretty quickly. I just hope I'm as lucky this time.
there is nothing more soul sucking than having to do something that you loathe every day.
good for you for being so aware of where you don't want to be and trying to change it!
<3 andrea
Your job makes you feel really stabby, as is evidenced by your twitter feed. You are too funny and good at life to have to go around feeling stabby all the time. I hope there is much newness and goodness on the horizon.
If the naturopath can't figure things out, what about a midwife? Around here, midwives see you with very little wait.
Sometimes I absolutely hate being a woman but then I think of the alternative and decide it's not so bad..
Hear you loud and clear.
No whammies!
It sounds like you are marshalling your forces to get yourself outta that stuff. Good on you, and I hope the naturopath has something valuable to add. Never been to one of those.
What's a naturopath? Not like a psychopath, right? Is this one of them holistic peoples? Because they are some kind of awesome, I tell you. I gave up on my GP doing anything about my allergies, and went to a holistic doctor. Some slight changes to the diet and now the allergies, ear aches and sinus infections are all under control. Magic, I tell you. (walk out if they burn chicken feather, though. I'm just saying that might be a little too far...)
Good luck... nothing worse than being stuck in a job you despise. Been there, done that and so happy I got out. It took a while though, so hang in there!
Stress can and will manifest its way in strange ways. We spend the bulk of our weekly hours at our job, you should enjoy them. I'm so sorry you've got all this going on. Maybe you should just dance it out. It may not help you, but for me the thought of you just getting jiggy with it is making me happy.