I thought I was over this 18 years ago. Er, I mean, 8 years ago. Yeah.
Wednesday, March 4, 2009 at 1:15PM I'm having blogging angst, ya'll.
I know, right? What a stupid thing to be angsty about. Apparently I don't have much going on in my life. It's not like I fucked up my existence by buying a MONKEY or anything.
It started with the stupid comment form, which is STRESSING ME OUT. Half of you hate it, half of you love it. I don't know what to do with it. I seem to have fixed it to MY liking but I'm not the one leaving the comments.
And then, yesterday, I was all giddy because the Random Tuesday like, exploded out of the gate. And then I got an email from a PR rep asking if I wanted to review a cleaning product, which, okay, nobody is EVER going to believe I actually cleaned something, but thanks, call me when you are working with the developers of anti-zombie spray and I'm TOTALLY your girl. But that was one of the first times anybody's asked me, so I thought it was kind of neat.
So I told hubby, you know, the person who is supposed to GET ME, and he revealed to me that HE DOESN'T EVEN READ THIS BLOG.
Oh.
He reads my other blog, religiously, because it's about the cutest child in the world, but this one he "just kind of skims because it's just a bunch of friends linking to each other, right?".
Is it? I mean, is that what this blog is? I don't know. I never had a big "plan" for it, like some people do, and I never intended to make money from it, but look! I sold outslapped some ads up there anyway.
My feelings were a lot little hurt because I consider this blog to be more of "me" and the other blog to be "me playing the role of Xander's mother", so it felt like he was saying that he wasn't interested in ME anymore unless it had something to do with our son. Which, of course, is totally not what he was saying.
He's a guy. They don't do that.
But he was surprised that this blog has a larger readership. I don't even know myself why you people keep showing up here. I totally appreciate it, but it feels a little undeserved most of the time. Do you just follow me home because I comment on your blog? Are you going to wander off in disinterest if I start doing reviews?
Anyway I'm thinking maybe I'll take a couple of days off. Bex has a pretty cool meme tomorrow that I might do and of course if the Friday Fill-Ins are good this week I'll do those. And I'll be posting Xander's 17 month update in the next couple of days.
Okay, fine, I'm not going anywhere.
But I'm going to be sulky.
Reader Comments (43)
Sulk away! That's the only reason I even have a blog, for public sulking. It's practically a requirement.
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Don't be sulky... I just found you and I love you! Keep writing and keep making me laugh. I appreciate it! So what if he doesn't read it. Would you rather him read it, or pay attention to you when you're with him? If he's not doing that, well then, we'll need to have a talk with him!
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Look, that is why I didn't tel my husband about it because you know what - he wouldn't understand. He knows I read blogs and I comment on them all the time and that I even tell him what I read and show him soemtimes but him knowing I have one - nope - that is where I get to be me - not the mom and not the wife - me! Sure I write about my kids and my hassles as a mom/ wife but that is what it is there for - to vent and sulk and praise the good and bad things in my life. Dont' worry about it - we come because we heart you and because after all you are the Un-Mom.
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Most people just don't "get" blogs so don't sweat it. And if you have the chance to sell out? Woot! Go right ahead. I'll still respect you in the morning.
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I was thinking about stealing your concept, actually. Posting the kids stuff at point a, and the me stuff at point b. But I don't know if I have the attention span for two blogs, let alone one. Here's my problem, I feel this pressure to come up with something to say, even if I have nothing to say. And I feel pressure to comment everywhere, even though it takes all day to read the 100+ blogs in my reader.
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I come because you reassure me that there are other crazy people out there somewhat functioning as a wife and mother and you're funny as hell.
But I would come whatever you do as long as you continue being crazy and funny. So review away!
SNAP OUT OF IT!! Do not let yourself stress over your blog. Easier said than done, though, since I have done it myself. But I did finally make peace with it. It's just a growing pain, don't worry.
If my husband didn't read my blog he wouldn't have the vaguest idea about my life, seriously. He works so much that we rarely talk in person. Now that's sad.
Maybe I'll sulk with you?
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I love your comment form girl :)
screw the haters!
and I think you are funny...that is why I read you..and I found you on entrecard I think..I will read no matter what...you be cool :)
and yes, guy are HUGE non thinkers...perpetual foot in mouth disease...
angsty is OK...we are girls after all, we have estrogen which means angst is an integral part of us!
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Since I just found my way to your blog I don't have anything to compare your commenting system too. But I don't think it's that bad!
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Stop sulking and open a bottle of wine. You should be rejoicing. You are witty, humorous and keep us all coming back for more.
If it makes you feel any better, Husby barely reads my blog, but one of his friends reads it religiously. Now that I write that, I think that's a little creepy...
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It's a Blog! For the love of Pete! You don't have to worry about it like it's your child. You're stuff is funny and different - that's why you have a following. If you skip a day (or two)of posting, life will continue. Anyone who doesn't like it? Screw 'em if they can't take a joke!
I never had a clue where you got the Friday fill in idea. Thanks for posting the link. I'm going to jump the bandwagon. You know, for a week or three, until I lose interest and don't bother anymore. Or until tomorrow when I decide that I'm too lazy to do it at all.
I'm pretty sure some readers only come to visit me after I visit them. Which means that my readers are just as petty as I am. ;)
Also, I haven't been leaving comments on all the blogs that I read, and I've noticed when I stop commenting, my readers do, too.
Either that, or I'm just nuts.
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I don't know why I come here either..
is this not where the booze is?.. hmm there must be something ...
xo
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Interesting..... I really think the blog is a way to view/release/show your inner self in a safe environment.....ummm..... maybe I am projecting a little.
As to the man..... I told and share a little with him (um, my man that is) and he looked at me like I was insane. For real. So, I keep it to myself and have a few (8-12) stalkers and a few (3-5) lurkers (that I know of) and they like me and I like them. I think they know me (get me) better than my real life friends. They know the real me and I like that. Feels good....mmmmm, I may just blog about this…
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Don't worry about the comment thing - I don't think anyone cares. I clicked I hated it just to fuck with you, but then I felt bad and clicked I loved it. Point being? I don't anyone is going to start a new facebook group in protest because they're so enraged about your comment form choices
And for the hubby? Don't worry about that either. Mine just thinks I love to slam skinny people which is worse that not reading it at all if you ask me.
I get your need for sulking. Knock youself out!
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Sorry you're feeling like a headcase. I can honestly say I come by because you're witty, funny, sarcastic and brutally honest. Your un-momminess speaks to the un-momminess in all of us who struggle being mom 24/7. And I dig zombies. Give hubby a chance to read the blog, he'll probably get a kick out of it, he obviously has no inkling of the cool factor involved...Keep writing, we'll keep coming.
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Dude, I feel you. I don't have any plan for my blog either. In fact, I don't really get my own blog. But it's so funny that you say that about the hubs and your other blog, because I was just feeling GUILTY or like a bad blogfriend because I read this one and rarely check in on the other one.
We should both chill?
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I love this blog. It entertains me. It makes me laugh and gives me important info like monkeys can be bought online.
As for the comment thing - do whatever you like. In the end, it's your blog and you get to choose how to run it. Tell us whiners to shut up and go with it if you love it.
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What?!?!? Don't leave me! Sniff. Sniff. Sob!!!!!
(Hold me, people! HOLD ME!)
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Its good to hear that other "experienced" bloggers have angst to. I have zero idea what my blog is supposed to be about or what I'm supposed to write but I just like the feeling that I can connect with other people. So just write about whatever makes you happy and we'll keep checking in!
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Love you! Hubby doesn't read my blog either, he will occasionally pretend to be interested when I read something to him...screw 'em, anyhow.
Once I finally remembered my open ID for commenting, I liked this fine, I just kept looking for the Blogger ID...
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I just find people and they all start talking about going off?
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Your comment form is fine. I know you will think I am completely unobservant (ok, I am), but I didn't even notice you switched.
We love you on this blog and I would even be willing to believe you cleaned something if you told me you did.
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Reviews are fine, I think (probably because I do them from time to time) as long as it's not the focus of your blog. As long as you're still Superkeely, you know we'll all love ya!
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The reason I started a blog was to do something that was NOT mommyish, even though I write a lot about my kids so I guess it is mommyish. It is disappointing when my family likes my posts about my kids more than the other things I write. I love reading your blog BECAUSE it is unmommyish!
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